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3/30/2009
noone but me from URL @ 6:02 PM HELLO FRIENDS, THIS IS IMPORTANT. Well, my phone got stolen so don't bother messaging/calling me alright. If you need to get to me during school hours call adlin, if after school try rupini or my house phone (66****24). If you don't have both numbers, then haahaaa, you'll find me someway or another if you really need to. Yeah, i think i'll be uncontactable for a bit so i'm sorry for the inconvenience :/ --- Today was a shitttttyshithead day. Fought with my brother in the morning, got onto the bloodycursed 197 and it didn't help that the aircon was spoilt. Stoned the whole way to school and got off only to realise like 20 secs later that i had left my pouch behind. Yeah for those of you who know me well enough, my pouch contains my handphone and my beloved NEW ipod touch. Made numerous calls; when i called my hp at 810 it was ringing and at 830 it was turned off so yeah, goodbye phone and my beloved tipood ): Crunch, Kinder Bueno, chocolate waffle & a certain someone's smile got me through the day. Got home and realised that my housekey was in the pouch too. I was stuck outside & i felt so hopeless i just sat outside and cried ): I think that was what leonard meant by chocolate-crush. (Gets you momentarily high, but lousy like shit when the endorphins die) Well, i fell asleep outside till my brother got home. I am so upset i'm going to watch monday night laughs allll the way till 12. My mom's back anyway (!) She looked so upset when i told her but you know what my lovely mother said? "are you sad darling? don't worry, sometimes these kinda things happen", ): ): ): So to the bloody lucky asshole of a thief who found my pouch and decided not to return it, welllll you jolly well enjoy my new tipood okay. Really, enjoy it thoroughly along with my ultraslim motorola phone. One, yeah, cos it was my fault. Two, they're both extremelyyy awesome, so well if they're not with me, i hope you use them well; & as much as it pains me to say this, i realllly mean it :/ Or the alternative, i hope both either die on you, or electrocute you enough to give you a lot of pain. But three, numberrr three. One fine day you're gna lose something worth so much more to you than the ipod was worth to me, and you will remember this day you decided not to return me my pouch. You will remember and you will regret it with every fibre of your living being. YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE. You have no idea how much i'm controlling my vulgarities right now. But i'm not, cos it's my fault. I don't even mind that much about my phone. But my tipood ): Christmas present from my mom and considering that my mom isn't that well to do, it meant the world to me that she actually even got me that. ): & now its gone, barely even 4 months la. Fuck ittttt. & I feel so incredibly lost without my phone too; i can't even tell the time. Wellwellwellll, i was talking about detaching myself from material goods wasn't i? Haha, talk about the sickest irony. &i also feel incredibly empty without my pouch. ): So yes, i am in a horrrribly gloomy mood where i look down when i walk and i drag my feet and i have a grimace plastered to my face most of the times and i want to have chocolatechocolate and more chocolate; i still do laugh and smile and talk cos im a generally cheerful person, but let me moan and whine for a few more days okay please? It'll make me feel better. & THANK YOU to all of you who helped me or cared in someway or another. Esp adlin for lending me yr phone & suzy for helping me talk so fiercely to the bus people haha. Much appreciated. SHITHEAD, 3/29/2009 noone but me from URL @ 11:21 PM I somehow find, you & i collide PP macs with nish & roopi on friday! Pandi nature was completed as we even took a nap after eating :) Haha. Makkalzzz, full strength soon please! Miss you like a lotlotlot suria & narmo! & satu i hope you're enjoying yr bro's wedding in india! & then booked into hq on friday with nurin zarifah syimah shanis & danial! (Long walk in alone at 1045pm was bloody scary, homgzz) Played soccer with the above minus shanis plus hassan & sgt idris till 3plus am & it was shiokkkk. Hahaha, perspired and laughed like crazyy. My soccer sucks like shitzzz now but ohwell, playing for leisure with friends was good enough fun for me :) Slacked for a bit at central office and then guitar-ed the night away with lt herald and then zarifah. We can play 'collide' now! :D Well i play it extremelyvery horribly but still! :D Didn't wna sleep and wanted to wake the rest with, 'the dawn is breakingggggg' with her on the guitar + my beeootifool voice but haha turns out we were sleepy too. Went to sleep at 5/6plus in smelly cold habitat with motorbike-roar-sounding-farty hassan. Fought smelly hands away & then hugging nurin to sleep was lovelyyy, until sgt idris's annoying hp alarm. Sat was fsd finals and hellooo to roopi & xiao wei! Wellll, biggest highlight was, CEDAR WON yo!! :D :D :D Superdupertruper proud of you girls! Still can say 'top 5 will do ma'am'. I'll punch ya'll ah top 5. Haha goodjob ya'll! Lunched at town and then went to my aunt's house cos my cousin's gf's wholeeee family came over for an 'introduction'. I hear wedding bells again! :) Well, i basically just went to sleep in the room with all the annoying cousins coming in to bug me every now and then. Slept ate and watched tv the entire day today. --- [[[ Friday & saturday were really lovely. It's been so long since it was just us hanging around at hq, doing nothing much, talking and laughing away. It used to be a constant that we took for granted i realise. Syimah you used to say, "the story of the soldiers who always pray for saturdays". It was a luxury so thank you to all of you for that two days of indulgence. It was much needed and well, im gna draw strength from it till the next time we do it again :) Love ya'll soldier sisterzzz! ]]] Blogging fever has died. School's back now, no more running away. Mom's coming back tomorrow! i had a dream and my first thought today scared me ): i thought that was that, it isn't supposed to be like this anymore. cant forget to breathe slow 3/26/2009 noone but me from URL @ 7:14 PM Through the looking glass, I like updating my blog even if no one bothers reading. Today started pleasant but mannz was it a tiring day. &! HAHA i didn't get a single sms till like 2 plus! ): I was whining to kristiano and he so sweetly (BLUEKZZ) msged me saying "HIII!!". Hahaha. Adlin i think this is my karma for laughing at you last year. But anyhow, im quite proud of myself that i wasn't tempted to start msging anyone at all. :) Its an achievement mannz. One fine day i shall just not bring my phone to school and try to live with that. We humans get too attached to material goods don't we? Like me in front of this ohsolovely laptop of mine. I feel empty when i don't have my phone, bored when the laptop's spoilt. Life's gotta be about so much more than this, seriouslyyy. But well, we're teens for a reason; enjoy. I enjoyed lit and history today! & ki is good fun plus maths is fine. At the end of the day, if i were to screw up my As, i'll be consoled that at least i enjoyed learning all that i did. (Yeah i'll say this now but kindly remind me if i get back horrible results k plz) & today we were talking about which school we prefered more, duh cedar helloooo, haha, but i realise that i'm learning soooo much more here. About subjects, people, life, future and whatnot. I'm quite glad for that :) I'm the kind who needs to like what i learn if not i'll hate it. Like how i hateeee econz yucks. & I do like my classmates, wouldn't really consider them friends for life or sth, but they're nice to sit around and have casual funny conversations with; cant expect too much right. Check me out yo, im back to little miss positivity geeeek. :D Whoooptidoooo! Howellz, im cool like that la huh. (& hahaha i have to say all this so that i'll rmbr it when i get back horrrible ct results). &&& weekend love awaits! :)  K movie for today shall be slumdog millionaire and then i shall sleeeeep! :) Justin Timberlake still gives me the hotzzz! :D :D Adious Samigoz! This just cant be summer love, you'll see 3/25/2009 noone but me from URL @ 11:19 PM With eyes so hopeful, "you used to look into these eyes, and you used to smile". -abby i just watched marley & me and mannz, i ran out immediately to go hug monty ): He must think im psycho. I always push him away whenever i come home cos he always starts jumping and scratching my legs. :/ I shall start hugging him more. But zee dog eatzz a lotzzzz. I cook one cup of rice and it lasts for only two days. Grahhh. Anyway, i think you can tell a lot about a person by their eyes; that is if you manage to look right in for a sufficient amount of time. I love hopeful and twinkly eyes! Really really! Hopeful eyes make me wna do anything to keep that hope there and twinkly eyes make me wna do anyth to make them smile. Cos when you smile, your eyes smile along :) Twinkly twinkly little eyes! I love talking to people with twinkly eyes. Maybe its just a personal bias, but wellll its just a plus i guess haha. That's why i think angmoh eyes (blue/green/brown) always seem nicer, cos they're lighter coloured so they reflect more light and appear 'twinklier'! Haha this coming from an arts kid. Yeahhhh, im an eyes person. (eh pun! Im a nice person! HAHA) Rightttt, getting back KI IS proposals tmr ): which means we cant consult the teachers anymore ): & i haven't even consulted them yet ): gooodjob sarah. I'm reallly gna die. But anw, haha i think its quite cool that those sheets of paper have gone alllll the way to Cambridge and back! That's further than i've ever been yo! I like this from Nat's blog: "...and mini shopping session with cheryl and nurin hahahahah seriously bad influence..." HAHAHA hilarious! SUSHI BUFFET ANYONE?? I will lovelovelove youuuuu!! I want my eel and salmon and baby octopussss. Sips of starbucks + Roopi = nice day number 2! :D shuddup and just say you love me k! Okay, post for the day! Its past 12 alreadyyy, dammit, my beauty sleeeeep! Adious samigozz! I know i've just got to let it go, and enjoy the show 3/24/2009 noone but me from URL @ 8:26 PM I just thought that you should know, I feel like i'm carrying a mop on my head now! & I realise that i only wna grow my hair for, uhhh, 5 reasons: 1) i miss. 2) to plait it! :) 3) to bun it! 4) to playplay haha. 5) &&&, to cut it alllll away in the end. Call me weird but i love the thrill in cutting hair. :) I think i'm expert at making shiokk tahu sambal now, seriouslyyy. I don't know why my cousin doesn't wna eat anyth else gaawshh. Anyhows, my mom saw cuttle fish, a marble ray & a turtle today. (she's in Papa New Guinea i think.) I sawwwwww, koi in the koi pond haaaa. Ice cream chefs + Roopi = nice day! With you soon please patriciaaaa! I've missed updating such random updates here i realise. Okay, time to go eat tahu sambal (:/), adious samigozz! & hooha for weekends mannz! come what may 3/23/2009 noone but me from URL @ 2:40 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADLINDINLIN! :D (20/3)  This picture reminds me of the matsmartat that you want/ed as yr boyf! hahaha. Happy birthday adlin! 18 mannz, you're actually 18. Welll, despite being older i wish that you remain exactly the way you are cos you're awesome exactly the way you are. Cute little thanggg, hahaha. I wouldn't know where to begin or end, so simply put, thanks for everything basically getting me through each and everyday. This is like some loveydovey thingg, so i shall end it saying i love you adlindinlin! :D Im glad we've been a third of each others' lives. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABBBYYYY! :D (21/3)  Hahaha for you i can believe that you're 18! Happy birthday dear friend! :) With you, i'm just damn glad that we were table partners in 3/4i cos if not i would never have known the lovely girl you are. I still rmbr my first impression of you was when you came into the toilet telling me that mrs chia called you a 'black beauty' & i was thinking to myself, 'mannnz, ego or what!' HAHAHA. Butbutbut, i've grown to know and love the you that you are and with you i feel so at ease i actually get to talk about anyth and everyth without holding back :) & you and i both know that it isn't something we can do with many people. Anw, you know what you want in life abby, so my bday wish for you is that you go all out and get it. :) -- I realise that when i do birthday shout-outs for people of the same age most of it goes along the lines of, 'homgzz i cant believe you're 18!'. Hahaha. Eighteen gawwshh. -- Wellll internet explorer is up and going again! :) So i spammed my weekends away watching grey's anatomy! Aaaaaaaah, i can't help it, it's like a drug. I lovelovelove it! But now that im done with S5, i dunno what to do till S6 comes out, mannz. K updates! Last week was a lovely week come to think of it! Last sat was ics debate semis and we got through (++ my face appeared on teevee!) went to clarke quay with nurin to meet zarifah syimah & gang after that. Co night on monday night,  unit camp on tuesday, headed down to hq after that with nurin & roopi and sleptover with syimah xiaowei & shanisza. && met so manymany familiar faces :) Just like good old times but missed you zarifah! I think i spent my weds and thurs sleeping eating and watching teevee, and celebrated adlin's & my cousin's birthday on friday! Best thing was a rush of ncc; virtually none in 3 months and vrooom in 2 days. The feeling was priceless, really. Along the lines of love. Meeting old loves, spending an entire day ncc style, and crashing good ole' 2nd home for no reason like we used to do. Yeah i admit that ncc is my escape route from reality, but i also don't mind admitting that i'm only human who needs a break every now and then. My sweeeeetest loveliest escape. :) No dickhead's gna take that away from me. -- Well, missed school today, mom's away till like next weds i think :/ I miss her already. But cleaning the house is fine cos i just dump whatver rubbish that's in the hall into my brother's room haha. I'm 17+ but my brother says i nag at him like im 37 haha, cant help it righttt! If not nth will get done. Im kinda dreading school just this week. But its okay, im anticipating fri&sat! :) I was reading my blog archives and i realise that i really went psycho studying for the Os haha. I wonder what this year's gna be like, but i know that i'm not gna rant here like i did then. I dont like specific people reading my blog but i'm not gna close it cos of that. Alrightyho, im gna go grab lunch and readdddd! :) & OH OH OH! Reason to smile at school yo! HEEEEEEE :D :D :D 1)Thanks for not dangling me on a string anymore. Its a first for you and i, about time, but i think we're gna be just fine aren't we? :) Cause i honestly believed in you. 3/14/2009 noone but me from URL @ 12:45 AM Touchdown Turnaround, "When two people are truly deeply in love but just can't seem to get things to work.. when does it come to the point when enough is enough?" "Never". I keep thinking about these lines over and over and over again. I'm back! Well for awhile at least. I'm at my aunt's place, its 1freakingam & im sosososoooo tired. My cousins' old kaki is over so they're all talkingtalkingtalking & noone's sending me home yet. I want to go homeeeeee ): Its okay, i shan't be a spoiltbrat since i should be quite glad that i have someone to send me home in the first place. --- TGIF today started with a secret heeheee :D met nish & rup after that to catch a movie and HAHAHA. Nurin was telling me about 'push' and 'coming soon' & i kinda mixed up the two so i told roopi that coming soon was a very nice movie and we happily went in (nish wasn't very happy gg in but its okay la nish! :) to find out that it was a thai horror movie! HAHA. But howellz, worked well for me cos i still laughed as much as i would have if it was a comedy. :D Sorrryyyyyy, but it was exciting right! haha. & then went to my aunty's place for cousin's bday and have been rotting here ever since. But still, i always feel good when i'm with these people. :) Faaamiiiilyyyyyy. Only thing worth mentioning, HAPPY EIGHTEENTH NARMO! :D :D :D (070391)  -- Welllll, CTs are over and it has been the worst series of exams i've ever taken in my entire life. :/ It kinda shocked me that it sucked so bad that i don't even feel the disappointment yet. Yeah, i'm not gna say anymore; just dont come tell me "its just CTs" please, thank you! But thanks to people who bothered wishing me luck haha. Esp you patricia! :D caught me by surprise but so sweeet! -- Welllll, life's been fine generally! My mom's the editor of Asian Diver Mag and her first magazine is out in stores now! Go buy go buy!! Im so proud of her! :) Its like a real magazine mannz. && she's been so sweet over the ct period, cooking and cleaning uncomplainingly and letting me sleep in her room cos there's aircon. & lots more stuff but i cant rmbr. She's gg away again next weds for a longlong time ): sighhhh, i dont like it hate it when she's gone. So lonelyyyyyy. --- & okay you know what? I think i'm just gna go sleep cos i'm so tired. I've finished eating my beehoon hohoho! Cousins still yakking away, siao. But eh makkalz know what? They remind me of us haha, the friendship. Or maybe cos they're all indians, heh. Goodnight world, as you can see i've been good, hope ya'll have been too! :) adious samigozzz! Maybe we're just trying too hard When really its closer than it is too far 3/05/2009 noone but me from URL @ 2:10 PM Hundred miles per hour, (I feel very insecure updating my blog in the comlab) My internet explorer has decided to kapoot on me which i guess, can be said to be a good thing, cos that's one distraction down. But heeheee i still have my tipood so yeah. I have ki lecture in 15 minutes, but i need to go in 10 cos i need to thaw myself before going into the Lt. I don't know what's wrong with the weather! It's either psycho hot or freaking cold. &&& Im sick ): My throat hurts a lotlotlot and i have a runny noseeeee. So annoying. & have i mentioned how much i hate Thursdays? Grosshit long days with only 2 breaks inbetween. & Thursdays are like neither here nor there you know; its almost friday but its not. I dont likeeeee. I can't wait for tmr. TGIFFFF, homgzzz the thought of saturday coming after is just lovely. Anyhows, past few days have been spent studying, eating, watching tv & sleeping a lot. Met roopi & nish yest! :) &oh! I realise that all starbucks work for studying, not just Marina. But the drinks there are the best and ohmeohmyyy the whip cream with caramel swirls :) everlasting love mannzzz!! & today is my 65 year old teacher's birthday! 65 mann, sixty five! zarifah i cant even call you old anymore. & he's such a funny old man! All his lame jokes, haaaha. Im so glad he stayed on to teach cos i really enjoy learning history from him. (Okay maybe except the most recent chapters cos its about economic growth which is just bluekzzz) &&& Mr Ho is my lit teacher, and he's so niceeee. On top of the fact that he is absolutely brilliant, (i tell you, he could have easily become PM if not for the fact tt his maths sucks haha) he makes lit come alive. & also, not many people get me to believe in myself, but Mr Ho does. & what he wrote on my essay today really made me feel so much better :) I realise that i actually enjoy learning. Especially from such teachers who know so much and love what they're teaching so much that i feel the love. I would go to school on my own accord and learn just history, lit and ki for the fun of it just cos it's interesting. yeahh, im a coolgeek like that. Exams are just plain killjoys. CTs next week, i really just hope to improve. I think i'll take it quite badly if i dont haha. Okay not very funny but the haha came quite naturally so i shall just leave it there. &. On another note, I say it's funny, but it's really not at all. It's just extremely sad and it hurts me. I don't make a big deal about it but, it's a big deal to me. Its not okay, but life goes on right? Right. Like adlin, i'm just gna lose myself in studying. Mugmugmugmuggggzzzzz. Stupid big fat As. Im not gna say anyth else yet, but soon you'll hear me. Okayokay, mom just msged to tell me she cooked lunch for me so that i can go home eat and sleep :) Hope all of you are doing fine, especially you and you and you whom i haven't talked to in a long while, misss ya'llllll. Mr Wong awaits, im late, bye! can we stop the world from turning.
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